ceebeegee: (Massachusetts foliage)
Thanksgiving went super well--the bus ride there wasn't bad at all, even with the storm. It rained but didn't delay us at all--I actually was able to catch an *earlier* connecting bus. Plus my step-mother's brother was supposed to join us with his daughters and they couldn't make it, due to the storm. I'm sorry to say that I silently yippeed. The uncle is kind of annoying--one of those guys who never reached his potential and is full of "if I'd stayed in college, I would've been a Rhodes Scholar" types. I remember calling Dad's place when I was in college and they weren't there but the uncle was and he was just SO TIRESOME. He wouldn't say whether they were there or not, kept playing these dumb games like "why do you want them?" and "what do you mean by that?" Plus he ran my Dad's restaurant into the ground. It's possible he's grown up since then but frankly I didn't want to risk my warm family Thanksgiving finding out!

So anyway it was just me and the parents--much as I missed my brothers, as anyone from a large family will tell you, one-on-one time with the parents is precious! Very nice and cozy. The parents live in an old farmhouse in rural New Hampshire--the house backs up to a forest and there's a little pond right on the property. They've done a ton of remodeling on it, including adding solar panels so now the whole homestead is powered with solar energy and heated with the numerous woodburning stoves we have. I was warm enough in my little room although I had a hard time sleeping. I went jogging three times--it's like something out of a Hallmark Christmas movie, or Currier and Ives, along that road. Highland Lake on one side of the road, sweeping fields with bundles of hay back up to the forest on the other, dotted with these old New Hampshire farmhouses. Very, very pretty. I just love it there and probably should visit a lot more! It's just such a pain to get to without a car...

One thing that made it so nice was that Daddy didn't go off about political matters. I am by far the furthest left in our little nuclear unit--my brothers are moderate to conservative, Liz is kind of a grab bag, and Dad is to the right of Attila the Hun (except that he's pro-choice and pro-gay rights. But RABIDLY anti-Obama, very pro-guns, etc.). I was kind of dreading any political talk--but Dad was great, only made one anti-Obama remark in passing. I should give him more credit, he definitely does not try to shove his views down our throats. (He's always held his tongue about the rift he and his brothers have with their sisters--he has talked about it very little and certainly hasn't tried to sway US (his children) against his sisters.)

So earlier this week I had--hold on to your seats here, kids, shocking news--MORE effing tooth trouble. I noticed Tuesday night that the crown toward the front of my mouth (in other words, this tooth, and this one--the same tooth that was crapped up by my crappy, expensive, ripoff former dentist) was loose. I PANICKED--I literally went cold at my computer. Called my dentist by it was after hours and they didn't have voicemail so I emailed them, begging for any time they could take me the next day. Was really, really freaked out Tuesday evening--I was just DREADING what might happen. Another dental operation that would cost me a ton of money, after how hard I've been trying to *save* money the past few months. Then I forced myself to calm down and think rationally. You don't KNOW that will happen, and maybe it'll just be a little thing that needs correction. I was talking to God about it, actually--I was able to calm down a bit although was still super stressed Tuesday night. I was also annoyed because I wanted to go to mass the next day (there's an Episcopal church some 20 blocks away on 5th Avenue, Church of the Heavenly Rest, that I've started attending--I really like them).

The dentist's office called me promptly at 9 the next morning and told me they could fit me in at 11. Dr. Kim looked at it and it *was* just a little thing--the glue had dissolved or something, so he just pulled it out, cleaned it up and reglued it. I was literally shaking during this and he told me "don't worry, it all looks as good as it could, it's not a big deal." The best part? This cost less than $5!!! When the receptionist told me that, I said deadpan "that's outrageous, I won't pay it." And pretty much danced out of there. And made it to church! My new dentist is the BEST and I am totally going to go onto Yelp and talk him up. I used to be so terrified of the dentist--and not because I was afraid of the pain, but the MONEY. My old dentists sucked and used me as an ATM--the worst was that they KNEW how worried I was about the money. That fucking hygienist, pushing those stupid EXPENSIVE ($100/pop) Arestin shots on me--you're a fucking HYGIENIST, why are you pushing an anti-biotic onto me (the weird thing about it was she'd say "it's up to you" and I'd flatly tell her I couldn't afford it, she would REALLY lean on me and double-down the pressure), you're not a doctor! While I'm on Yelp promoting Dr. Kim, I should put a few words in about the Levingarts (old dentist). Anyway, all is well now. Smile is preserved, as well as bank account :)

I'm having one of my days-long headaches, kept at bay by abusing my economy-sized bottle of Advil. God bless drugs. These headaches aren't the really bad ones I get sometimes* they just LAST. I chug ibuprofen, they go away for a few hours, then they're right back. I also massage the back of my head and around my ears a lot, which helps a little.

*About once or so every 3 years I will get absolutely TERRIBLE headaches, as bad as migraines, the kind where I literally cannot move or get up the pain is so bad. They last about 20 minutes and then taper off after that (so, not true migraines).
ceebeegee: (Family)
Stuart deep-fried the turkey which should've tasted better but as he admitted, the turkey itself wasn't too good.  As he said "Next year will be a Butterball!"  Stuart's wife had two uncles there, Ken and David--I've met David before, when my niece was born, but never Ken--he and his wife brought crazy amounts of side dishes, including a delicious candied yams.  Not that I really got to enjoy it--I piled my plate high with everything but after a few bites I felt something crack in my mouth.  YUP.  Another fucking crown broke off.  I went to the bathroom and looked at the damage--just as before the crown didn't pop off, the post broke as well.  Very luckily this was a different tooth, it was on the left and further back so it wasn't nearly as noticeable.  Still couldn't eat much though!  Gosh, my dental adventures are exciting--nothing like life on the edge, amirite?  Can someone please explain why these things ALWAYS have to happen at the worst times--in the middle of a show, during my dentist's vacation, on Thanksgiving, in Spain while working on a cruise ship?? O universe, u so crazy, if I didn't laugh I'd have to scream at your perverse sense of humor.

I made it through the rest of the weekend without smiling too widely or laughing too much and went to the dentist on Tuesday.  I have a new dentist, BTW--after years of going to the old one, I started to feel as though I were being...shall we say, pushed a little too much.  Every single time I went, the hygienist pushed me--really pushed me--into getting the Arestin, which is an antibiotic shot for your gums.  She would say "it's up to you," but whenever I demurred, she would really lean on me.  "No, I really think you should get it."  Here's the deal--each shot is $125.  Not covered by insurance, either.  I almost never got out of my visits there without dropping bank like that, even when I didn't have cavities.  The problem two years ago with the crown snapping was another red flag--YOU put that crown in, you obviously used crappy materials, why don't you take responsibility for that?  You know I grind my teeth--you should've used a thicker post.  The thing about dentists is they're like plumbers or mechanics or even funeral directors--you usually consult them in a time of great need, you're often upset, and they're experts in something you know nothing about.  They can easily screw you over.  So I thought about it, and researched them and other dentists on Yelp, and finally settled on another dentist whom I trust and who has very high ratings on Yelp.  He seems great so far and what little I've had done so far is MUCH less expensive than the other dentist.

Until Tuesday--he looked at the crown and tooth and showed me the X-rays.  He can't redrill and put another post in because there's not that much tooth left.  He's going to have to pull the whole thing and then we're looking at two options--a bridge or an implant.  As I emailed to my family, it's really only one option--a bridge, because implants are so unbelievably expensive, even with coverage.  I don't think my stepmother quite grasped the situation--she emailed me:

Yup, implants are expensive, but they are permanent, won't fall out, or scream IMPLANT like some bridge work.

I have an implant and am glad I went that route. A baby tooth that had been with me for 60 odd years, finally fell apart a couple of years back, so I went the implant route. If you decide to go implant, perhaps your dentist would work out a payment plan? Does your dental insur. pay for any of the work? Even if it pays for the extraction......The implant draw back is not having the new & improved "tooth" for several months. At least that was the deal several years ago, maybe that's not true now.


I replied:

Dental insurance pays for very little of the implant work, not least because there is a cap of something like $1500 per calendar year.  Maybe when I really AM independently wealthy I can look at that option again but right now it's just not responsible--the price they quoted me was more than $8000, you can believe it.

My stepmother's response:

OMG!!!!! $8,000.00!!!!!!! That is RIDICULOUS! I think I paid about $3,000.00 and can't remember if any was insur. reimbursable and I thought that was AWFUL. Bridge sounds like a plan, for sure.

The bridge option is "only" about $1200, so not as bad, although still a chunk of change.  This is all more complicated because my dental coverage is changing in January and I don't know if they'll let me treat what is essentially a pre-existing condition.  And making a bridge takes months.  Well, at any rate I can smile again--my dentist recemented the old crown, but I still can't chew on that side. O universe, you so funny!
ceebeegee: (Celebration)
First off--I made it through the WHOLE WEEKEND without the glue dissolving. No embarrassing meth mouth at rehearsal yesterday! Yay! Three and a half whole days, unbelievable!

I went to my regular dentist this afternoon--her first day back from vacation. She very kindly took me right away which was great as the assistant had told me last week "be prepared to wait awhile, we have a lot of patients Monday." She took a gajillion X-rays--at least 7-8--because she was trying to retrieve the old post that was within the tooth. She had to drill again which absolutely terrified me but the GREAT news is that the tooth didn't break! I have been literally sick this week (in fact, I couldn't let myself get sick--I literally need to vomit a couple of times, I've been so stressed out, but I couldn't because of that barely-glued on crown) worrying about how much this would cost--implants and temporary prosthetic teeth are NOT cheap. I was also super-stressed at this dragging on for several weeks--have to see an endodontist, have to come BACK to the dentist, on and on, through midterms, etc. Nope, she did it all today *and* it didn't cost NEARLY what I was worried it would. Wasn't free, and it's money I'd rather use for something else, but this really is the best of all possible scenarios.

YAYAYAYAY! So, so happy!

*Whew* Okay, now on to finishing my paper and studying for Midterms.
ceebeegee: (I can't take it any more!)
I was able to sneak a call to the emergency dentist, hissing through my teeth, and they told me to come in at 11, though I still had to wait a WHILE, over an hour. But they were very nice about it and apologized. She reglued it, saying she was stunned it had even lasted that long. I asked if I could take with me or buy some of the cement she used--she said no but suggested Fix-o-Dent. I reserve judgment (since the other two over-the-counter adhesives didn't work at ALL) but we'll see. She said there might be pink stuff coming out the sides--I don't care about that as long as I don't look like a meth addict.

Just have to get through the rest of the day. Sunday will be a trial, if the tooth falls out again, because we have a runthrough *and* a production meeting afterward. We'll see.

I've been having thse mini-panic attacks this week, I'll just be seized with dread. It goes away after awhile but still. This. Sucks.

On the bright side--Tesse came by last night and made soup for me and it is SO GOOD. Thank you, Tesse! I'm losing weight because I haven't been able to eat anything much! And my paper is going well.
ceebeegee: (I can't take it any more!)
I woke up this morning and as I was washing my face--the tooth was suddenly loose again.

So now I'm...stressing. Trying to figure out exactly what to do--I'm at work but can barely talk. The evening will be difficult. I'm going to try to get another emergency appointment at the same dentist (and if they're not available, another one in the plan), but would rather not have to make those phone calls while people can hear me. "Oooh, what's the MATTER? Oh, a CROWN fell out? How TERRIBLE." Nope, don't want to go there.

Needless to say, this complicates the weekend as well.

Naturally my appointment Monday with my regular dentist isn't until the afternoon--AFTER my class.

Geez, this is so stressful. I'm really hating my life right now.

Update

Feb. 23rd, 2011 02:13 pm
ceebeegee: (I can't take it any more!)
So instead of going to the out-of-plan dentist yesterday, I went to an in-plan one (not my regular dentist) this morning. Waited around for awhile then they took an x-ray and finally called me in. Here's the deal:

It's not just the crown that fell off--the post inside also broke off. This complicates things enormously for two reasons:

1) It's more difficult to glue temporarily, because all that's holding the crown on is the glue. There's no post to help the glue. She glued it on but told me I cannot do ANYTHING to that tooth. No pressure of any kind. I'm afraid to talk, which naturally makes things difficult at work and school.

2) When my regular dentist does start to repair it, she'll have to drill *again* within the tooth itself in order to remove the old post and put in a new one. This is not without risk--once a tooth undergoes root canal, it becomes more brittle--hence, the tooth may shear off. If that happens, I'll have to get rid of the tooth entirely and get an implant or something. Which means MONEY.

So I'm taking it one day at a time until Monday when I am in my regular dentist's office FIRST thing. Every day the glue holds is a victory.

This too shall pass...

On the bright side, I should be losing some weight since I'll be on a completely liquid diet until Monday! And if I have to stay home all weekend if the glue doesn't hold, then I ll just get that much more studying done. I did start my first paper for my current class last night, which always makes me feel good.
ceebeegee: (Default)
Shit day. After a great weekend (dinner with friends, a facial, Rocky Horror Show at TTC, a productive production meeting), yesterday pretty much sucked. Remember this tooth? It came loose again--and it's not a temporary crown, this is the actual crown. I felt it getting loose and called my dentist--only to be told the dentist(s) (it's a husband and wife team) are out of town ALL THIS WEEK. The receptionist told me if it falls out, to get some dental glue. I went down to Chelsea to work with Christine (she's playing Lady Macbeth in the production I'm dramaturging) and it fell all the way out while I was at her apartment. I went out to get the glue and it just doesn't work. I tried it twice but it wasn't holding. I got a different kind of glue and that didn't work either.

Fuck.

I had to miss the Notches fundraiser *and* Ryan's show, Alky because I cannot appear in public right now. I am at work but can barely move my mouth talking. Christine gave me the number of her dentist which is luckily right near by but naturally they don't take my insurance so there goes $150.

It just all sucks right now.

It could be worse though. It's just extremely frustrating that this keeps happening to this ONE tooth.
ceebeegee: (Viola in the water)
This weekend was very INTERESTING. As in the Chinese curse. Saturday dawned hot and humid--Ben showed up at my place and we lugged the screen and all the other stuff down to the Park. (One fantastic thing about this experience is that we can store stuff between show days at the Downtown Boathouse. Yay, no lugging stuff back and forth on the subway!) I was occupied with many producer-ial tasks, such as delegating tasks to the two volunteers, sending out for ice and water, setting up the backstage, setting up the stage right quick change section, et cetera. Laura, my FOHRP liaison, stopped by and we talked about the volunteers, and other stuff. She couldn't stay long, unfortunately. The show went up--we didn't have a huge audience, no doubt because of the heat. One volunteer, Selvena, was terrific in redirecting the foot traffic; she was very hands on and even kicked out three obnoxious little boys who were arguing with Duncan. (She threatened to call the cops on them--love it!)

A Foolish Thing Was But a Toy... )

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